Mak

Mak, mom, mama, mother, ibu , umi. So many the terms that we used to call the most wonderful person in our life. My mom, Zainap Talib, shes one of the wonderful, beautiful, talented, awesome women i ever have. She just 52 years old with no medical illness at all.

Last week, mom complaint of fever, myalgia, and sorethroat. I tought it is just mild flu or just sorethroat. Then she went to General practitioner and given T.Pcm. I know my mom so well, she didt want to eat, drink or anything if she fall sick. So the symptoms worsen, she went another GP , different doctor and given t.cephalaxin, . How stupid am i, i didt check it. I tought she will be fine to take the 3rd gen of cephalosporin, then she having some multiple rashes.

We tought it is dengue so, mom was admitted at C3  on Thursday. Mom quit lethargy and pethecia rashes seem much as they started mom with iv tazocin. The HO didt want to tKe note my mom got penicilline base allegy, so they never mention. I believe in them for my own mom life. How stupid am i. Then, the pethecia become more and more. I just cried and cried for this whole damn week. What going on to my mom, the claimed to rule out autoimmune disease, and also hematological disease most likely the malignancy. But not single damn shit about allergy. I also discuss with the MO there and said its due to allergic reaction and i thought it is due to cephalosporin and tazosin.

Day 3 of admission, she become tachypnoiec. Mom was transfer to acute bed and i take my 1st EL. The want to transfer her to icu and intubate her. I found the ABG was quit ok. So i request not for intubation. Then mom was transffered to icu. Just 20 min at the icu, the MO call me and my dad, they want to intubate. Im so stupid to let my mom being intubate that time, cause when she being trasferred there we hold our hand, i cried and she just hold me and said "redha adik, it gonna be ok. Mak x nak intubate " and then i saw my mom being sedated without we saw her before the sedation.

Day 4 of admission, i said to my anest MO again my actually mybe ada allergic reaction, they still keep on going gave the antibiotic that from cephalosporin group. Then, i called everyone i know cause  that evening im just glad the counsultant anest got a brain to think it is allergic reaction. DRESS SYNDROME. I just keep crying. I call my pakar at serdang. Dr Kartini. She so nice.i glad im from upm. So she told me certain things and still when i traced mom result , the serology dengue that my own request was positive, so turn out mom maybe have allegy and dengue at same time.

Day 5, the counsultant skin baru lah tengok. Tadaaaa diagnosis STEVEN JOHNSON SYNDROME. I once again cried at sme time glad and thankful. She being manage accordingly. Insya Allah mom will be okay with Allah help. My friends , HO, not HO totally gve moral support to me. And i take leave for 3 weeks. Rasa cm berbaloi lah. . Please pray for my mom and your mom

LCD

Oh dugaan sungguh.

LCD yg ku sayangi dah retak.
ni semua silap sendiri..
right now, bila g Apple tech kat @dangacitymall amboi terus masok payment.
charge bayaran RM1600.00 ..

                                          muka terkejut lepas dengar.. dush2.wachaaa pakcik apple~

baik lah.. so try la google2 kat internet. place yg cheap sikit nak buat LCD ni. cam haram je x jumpa2.
then suddenly. pooft jumpa la website ni..   http://okcsnilai.com/   ok.. so i try to contact them..

its easy as nak buat kacang pool .. they said harga LCD macbook air yg diowg ada around 600 so charge ngan service tolak and tambah jadilah 7++ ..

x d lah nak g nilai, nak hantar laptop je.tp apakah daya, terasa nak pergi. cause i not a normal person yg percaya benda2 cmni. sedangkan dalam BHT patient pon mmbe x tulis betul inikah yang kita x pernah tengok cara diowg kerja.. so conclusion...

Bismillahi Tawakal to al Allah, Wa La Hawla Wa La Quwwata Illa Billah... 

                                         p.s not mine.. this is just an examples LCD crack
                                     ni mmg x yah lah nak baiki2. terus beli baru. hehe

       

acute site, last week at A3.

Alhamdulillah . syukur kepada Allah sekarang aku jaga acute site. acute site in A3 was the worst time for all HO yang jaga A3. The specialist expect everything from u
and u need to understand the sequence of the patient. for examples:

-when intubation
-how long intubation, what the highest FiO2 they used for the baby
- any surfactant given
- wean off intubation and continues with NCPAP? or SPO2?
- How condition
- dadadadadadadadadadadadadadad

pehh berpeluh bila present depan specialist lagi2 kalau yang malignant
- habis silap je present, dia akan koyak review yang kita buat and then tulis depan dia satu2..
ok that the worst part la in the acute site.

But it is worth experienced. U learned a lots.

hemm.. i never introduced u with my own team. this is our pictures.

   
                          me with hafizah. she is 4th poster. kaki gosip. kaki nnges sama2. kaki komplain.
                                               senang kata sebulu lah

                                                  ni plak ayuni.. hehe now dah nak jadi MO. WOAH

This only pic in my lappy. yang lain dalam hp. mostly my friends they had finished all the posting . just tinggal last posting either A&E or Anest. so sad.. cause they super nice to me even thou im just a little girl always nagging mintak diorg tolong. -_-''


so moral story: i love this posting cause i meet lots of new friends...
gonna miss them.

nah kata gurindam tok malam ni..

p/s: You think you know me-alter bridge

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life

bitter place and a broken dream

And we leave it all behind

On this day it's so real to me

Everything has come to life

Another chance to chase a dream

Another chance to feel

Chance to feel alive

On this day i see clearly everything has come to life

bitter place and a broken dream

And we leave it all

Leave it all behind

i have been defeted and brought down

droped to my knees when hope went

out ohhhhh they time has come to change my ways

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life

bitter place and a broken dream

And we leave it all leave it all behind (yeah)

I'll never long for what might have been

no regret won't waste my life again ohhhh

I won't look back

I'll fight to remain

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life

A bitter place and a broken dream

And we'll leave it all behind

On this day it's so real to me

Everything has come to life

Another chance to chase a dream

Another chance to feel

Chance to feel alive

Fear will kill me, all I could be

Lift these sorrows

Let me breathe, could you set me free

Could you set me free

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life

A bitter place and a broken dream

And we'll leave it all behind

On this day it's so real to me

Everything has come to life

Another chance to chase a dream

Another chance to feel

Chance to feel alive

pengenalan. permulaan. coret2

wah.. lama dah x tulis blog.
last time tulis bila bersama2 dengan roomates tersyg. that time actually just for fun.
then i wonder. this is my time to write a blog. #farahizzati

berkongsi pengalaman, berkongsi cerita yang mendtgkan faedah dan juga keburukan (jgn tiru)

yeah! alhamudulillah dah masuk 5 bulan kerja.

dan setiap perkerjaan mmg memenatkan. menyesakkan akal. mendatangkan puluhan kedutan di muka. 

sekarang aku dah masuk 2nd posting.

PAEDIATRIC @ KANAK-KANAK 

dulu inilah posting yang aku amat x suka. masa medical student. sbb begitu kecil kanak2 yang msuk. begitu petite. begitu fragile. tapi posting ni jgk mengajar aku banyak benda. 

Subhanallah, kanak2 yang hanya 900gram  boleh membesar dengan kuasa Allah

so pada ADIK2 yang baru msuk sekolah.

belajar pandai2.

kecik2 kita just sekecik 2-3 kg je . skrg dah bertambah berpuluh2 kilo.

jadilah manusia berguna. manusia yang memberikan faedah di dunia ini.

manusia yang mengejar dunia dan akhirat.

yang muslim terutamanya. jadi Muslim yang target tinggi2. jgn ciput2 je..

aku x nak lah nnti dpt anak yang x berbapa dari adik2 islam ni.. (pesanan akak) 

nah gambar baby kecik dalam incubator. kalau x insaf x tahulah

ni kanak2 yang sakit. rasanya pesakit ni lahir dalam 1.2 kg je. skrg dah 1.4 kg. masih ada di ward kanak2.

ni plak bdk sehat. hehe my lovely niece . Tihani Fatanah . masa lahir 3.3 kg 

sekarang hanya Allah tahu berat dia. beras 5 kg pon lebh ringan

love u so much

ok habis dah. wasalam